Well, cried for like 3 hours before I go camp? Managed to sleep at 1am but he messaged me at around 3am, breaking this bad news to me. So I cried till 5 then I go get ready..
After that, I was like alone on the bus listening to my ipod, his favourite songs kept playing and then I cried.
I know I sounded like a cry baby but I did promised myself to not be too harsh, just one day, for me to cry my heart out. And I will never think about it again.
Saw my secondary school friends on my way, reminded me of him, cried again. While playing games during camp, I couldn't stop thinking about the fact that he had already decided to ditch me, after a year. I could not accept it. Tears started pouring, like loosen taps again..
In the end, aiyo.. My eye bags like water bag.. So puffy and watery~ Was trying so damn hard to control myself and tried holding back my tears but I just couldn't do it.
I still can't accept it. Friends came to me, teacher came to me, trying to comfort me. Much appreciated people =)
After that, my whole mind I just couldn't stop thinking about it. And he didn't even went to that camp.
Well.. Couldn't sleep so talked to YiMin, RuiQin and MichTay. LoL. The other girls were all asleep after Ms Fun's treats..
Guess they really am tired =) After 1 or 2 hours RQ and YM started falling asleep, one by one..
So us two Michelle(s) went out to walk walk and talk craps. Saw some OGL, asked us to joined them. Didn't really join them though..
About 4am, his best friend messaged me, said he saw him with another girl. Both like very close, the rest I shall not elaborate.
Make me feels sick. I knew that girl, she's the one who came to meet him on my birthday.
At first I thought she's just a normal friend of his, neither did i know..
I'm just too slow to realise that. Was really agitated at first, but given some thoughts, I should be glad about it.
At least I finally get to know his true color. He said he don't love me anymore but he don't want to lose me. That's so pathetic.
He only thinks about himself. He even ganged up with my another ex to say me. I felt so hurt and humiliated.
I don't want to be one of his toys where he can take out and play with whenever he likes. That's really not fair.
He told me they were only classmates, but why he asked his friend to not tell me? Why has he got to be close to that girl? Why would they be together near his place when it's midnight? Why?
After that, my heart is dead. Tears? Not a single drop. Talked to Michelle the entire night. felt so much better..
Today.. Had lots of fun I can say =) Not a single tears dropped =) Well.. Promised my friends that I won't think about it anymore. And I did. =) I won't let my friends down, neither will I let myself down =)
Last day of the camp I must say is the most most fun of all cause I've let go of myself! =D Played and enjoyed the entire day =) Thanks to HC pips, love them LOTSS!
bleahx! =p
See, my dark dark circles
And my puffy eyes
(first day)
Used my 0 degree specs to cover up
Promised him that I will take with him on Monday =) where we will be wearing uniform =( May took this picture of him though =)
My blue hairband, notice?? =)
Seriously, got to be strong! Been telling people around me to be strong and get on with their life when they experienced the same thing.
Was really heartbroken at first and I thought I won't be able to do it. Action speaks louder than words, I did it people, so can you =)
Hias, 2 days straight never sleep liao.. Many people said my dark circle really very dark, like kena punched like that. Promised my friend to take care of myself, shall go sleep le =D Nights~
